Shitty week

Hey girls,

Well, it's been a terrible few weeks. Without going into all the gorey details, I'm getting sued for $30,000. It was from a slight fender bender I was in two years ago, the day before I left for India. Anyway, now the guy is claiming soft tissue neck and back problems. Ugh, it's annoying.

Then, Brent and I had a fairly serious fight and nearly broke up. I don't really know what to say because we worked it out, but it really made us both step back and think if we want to be long term. That's definitely a hard question to figure out. I know I love him, and I'm more in love with him than anyone else I've ever been with, but is that enough? He can be so pig-headed sometimes, and never thinks he's in the wrong...but then again, who ISN'T like this sometimes. We are doing really well other than that, and living together has been great, except for the minor hiccups along the way.

To top it all off, we were supposed to have our second cardio exam on Monday. But, then some guy in our class thought it would be a great idea to send out an old test from 2007 (that was blatently stolen from the admin office) to the entire classs via his westernu email account. So, I guess there were too many of the same questions and our head honcho prof cancelled the exam. This is actually a REALLY bad thing because now we have nearly 70 hrs of test material for our final. I know this will be a good way to feel like we are taking our boards, but it's also really shitty. I didn't do that well on the first exam and was hoping to make this next test my buffer so I can actually pass the class.

I honestly think I'm getting more and more depressed being here. I love being in school, and I love Brent, but I absolutely hate Southern California. It is freaking hot, there is no where that I can run, and because of the heat I barely ever run anyway. I'm so excited to move home (or closer to it) next year. I also think that school is just depressing as well, even on our off wknds we are studying our asses off, or, we are feeling guilty about NOT studying. I have high blood pressure, a high resting heart rate and an overall general feeling of shittiness. I think the worst part about it though is that I'm bringing Brent down with me, he's such a positive person and it's almost like he has to be positive for the both of us. The guilt of this is nearly worse than being depressed.

Wow, sorry for the negativity. I just needed to get it off my chest. Things really aren't that bad, and there are some really good times here, I just need to remember those and get over it.

Okay. time to get back to studying. We will be in the library on our free Sat evening until close to 9 :(